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BOOK: 7 "BEIGE*BUTTS/-..-I*(!)"? poems..(C)copyright-(C)-philip lawrence sherrod "BEIGE*BUTTS/-..-I*(!)"? poems..(C)copyright(C)-philip lawrence sherrod LILLY PUFF PUBLICATIONS 1994 NEW YORK, NY (c)1994:Philip Sherrod ISBN: LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CATALOG TYPSET:- IN:QUADRO(15) CARD NO. No part of this book may be reproduced by hand-or any mechanical- means, withoutthe written consent-of the author.(C) FIRST EDITION!


 BOOK: 7 
"BEIGE*BUTTS/-..-I*(!)"?
poems..(C)copyright
      philip lawrence sherrod
"BEIGE*BUTTS/-..-I*(!)"?
 poems..(C)copyright
       philip lawrence sherrod
 LILLY PUFF PUBLICATIONS 1994 
NEW YORK, NY
 (c)1994:Philip Sherrod ISBN:
LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CATALOG 
TYPSET 
IN:QUADRO(15)
CARD NO.
No part of this book may be reproduced by 
hand-or any
mechanical-
means, without/-the- written consent-of the
 author.
FIRST EDITION
PART*TWO/-..OF*/-..THREE*
*PARTS!
 -with or with(out-..my*glasses)-..i see-..them(beige-butts)..filters on a white.. *stem-..SYMBOLIC* NORDIC* 
NICO*TINE *BLUES..the -*petals-
                  -shad*ows..(at angles/-..RIGHT* or 
                  LEFT* -*WORDS)..-*flowers?
             -Left*bysum buddi..(Who sez..-What'S        Up*/-O-//..(CUM'ON/- RIGHT*DOWN_
                  N'-BLOW*YU'/-..*WAY?)-..i*didn't 
                  want-*-tu..*SMOKE*(-Jus'..Pikk'd Up 
th../-4hi-ng?            
                  ..when*i/-.. wuz..l7)..*habit!..*like..       dang*lin'..CAR*ROT/-.. n4ront*- of/-..RAB*BIT'/-..'n-(GOLD..no!-(ORANGE)-.."BREEDIN'LIKE-?
           -       -*BIRDS*/-OF *FEATHER!..-tickles *me..))
                      -that*man/..-WORKIN'*PULLIN'_
*SHOULD*N'T/-..(?)-
 Pull-*
                 -*PULLEY*..-(PULLET*/-.."FRENCH"_*HEN)!
-!*SWUNG*-?
            *-ROUND/-..MY/-*..* HEAD*-..*AGAIN?                                                      
   luk'd"r..over &*/-..-*saw!
            -Black*Hand.. /-*squeezin'*.. sum*-*Beige*Neck?
                     *on/-.. *PARKBENCH?)..-*tryin'/-..      
                  to*MILK..th'tip?..wf'/-..BLUE*BALL*
                                                      CAP! -*UP?..yess..-on.
LEGAL*DISCLAIMER:
     Original*Poems were*Created..&
*Copyrighted..Jan.07, 2001.-All*..*-*Personal*Names..*Used..are*Fictional-!../-?-      &;..-*Created./-*...as*Original*Characters/-
!..-To*Represent*Symbolic-?
               Human-*Relationships!..-&*All*Created*..
*Persons/-!(?) ..&***Person
al*Names-?
             ..are*(-Over* 18yrs.-old!). -The*Work..
                   *Represents/-! ..an*Attempt!-To*Explain/-?..The*Vicissitudes??/-..&
               *Dilemmas/-?of*Being*Modern* (?)..&*
           -Dealing*With*/-?…Modern*Living/-?..&*Human*Imagination/-?..(?)
                  -As*...-*Psychological*Factions(!)  

                Note:..Punctuation*Used*To*An*Excess/-?
..As*A*Way/-?..To*Guide*
                  The*Reader/-?-..Control*The*Reader/-..To*The
                              *Point.          ..(!?)-Of*Understanding/-..
The*(Poet’s*Intent!)?..-   
                   As*Well*As..    ?-Create*An*Additional/-?
..*Art*Form!      
 JANUARY 07, 2001

                    ABOUT MY POEMS:."these works/-..come*from-
..(Every*Day*Attempts!/-)?
                        To*Co*mmun*icate/-..With**Others!(?)..-(About..One's*/-..*Intimate*Feelings!)
                        *Some*Tmes/-?..Falling*Short/-..Of*/-..Complete*/-..Dia*
                     logue/-?..&*-Failing*-..*All*/-?../*Human*
                      Under*standing’S!(?)..of*the-../or of*a..(?)-           
                        ..-Poet's*Concern*/-..Of*LIMITED*Traditional/-*
..*Boundaries!-          
                           -of*/-..&*For*/..-The/-* Majority/-?..&-As*These*/-
           Compelled*/-*LIVING*..-*IMAGES-..(!)?-   
              ...Are*Forced*/-..*Upon*One!..-Bye*the-..
..-(Un*Educated*/-?..-Multi*/-
..*Tudes!)?"(?)

                      (They*Are*Serious*Attempts/-..At*Love!)

Note: -all*mye*poetry/-..is writ-
             ten/-..as-..(the*Spoken*Word!)?          
                   *Dedicated*/-..-To*The*Way/-..-Most*People(!?)
              *Speak*/-!-...   *Con-*sciously/-&..Or*/-..
        Un*-Con*sciously(!)?..-&*as*words;**
               (Are*Heard/-..? With*All/-..*Those*/-..*Little*/)-      
..(*IN*CON*GRU*-ITIES..?
                    ..of-Color*Full/-?..In*Ventions/)-?..&*
..amp;*Person*alities/-?
                 ..*Cre-*ating/-..Some*/-..Quite*Color*Full/-..
*Dramatic*Speech(!)?
              ..Such*As/-..*The*Use/-..of*Slang/-..&
               *Col*loquial*..-(Small*Rural/-..To*Urban*ites/-
*Language(!))?
       ..-The*Way/-..-You*Hear*Them*Speak/-
..As*Opposed/-to*The*-?
                         *(Proper*/-. ..*English*Dictum!)-..In*Short/-..I*Have*
-Taken*/-..*Liberties!      
         ..-As*A*Poet/-..To*Remind*America(!)?
-of*The
                    *Rich*-ess/-of*(..the/-..*American*Language!)?
..But*then/-..*Again/-
..I*TAKE/-..
-LIBER*/-..*TIES(!)?
                      -Using*/-Low*Class*Slang/-?
                           ..*With*/-..Hier*/-..*Archial**Voice(!)?                                     
 PART*TWO/-..OF*/-..THREE*PARTS!
"BEIGE*BUTTS/-..-I*(!)"?
poems..(C)copyright
      philip lawrence sherrod



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Oh! Pleeze! Pleeze!

(you've..got to!)

takeme/..to th' SHOOTING GALLERY?

What do you..mean?

At-.. Asbury Park! (If you.. -*shoot- th' Squirrel

? -He runs UP &/-amp; *DOWN*..(th' LOG!))

If you..shoot th' Buzzard! his*(EYES..

LIGHT*-UP?)& *he.. *SQUAWKS*!!If you..

shoot* th' Piano-Player?

(N' th'seat(-?..*ASS*)he(REARS*UP)?

N'..Plays th' Piano!!&..

If you..shoot- th'(GALS*- *NAVEL?) she lifts.-

.UP-/ HER DRESS?

& *LAUGHS*!

(i know..your'e a good.. 

*shooter?)Oh!Pleeze!Pleeze! *shoot..

for*me!

So I Can* Get* Some*thing..

(A BULL*SEYE)? &

 (I)WILL*..TAKE(IT*)*HOME?

(&it'll..be jus' like-)

when i was..(a little*- girl)?

and..YOUR'E MYE..(BIG*PAPA)?

WF' .. TH" (BIG*GUN)?

MARRY *ME!.. MARRY *ME!

she said! (for 3yrs.-straight-)..until-

th' 4thyr./..&th'Sthyr. ..bye-then/she had seen..

too-much/-..of him?(er' *Idol/-(?)..-*fallen/-..*struck..*down!)

 ..bye(er'..CRITICAL DREAMS!)

she' ad..

2ndTHOUGHTS! ..she'said.

..fe*-male

..figure *bound(bizarre-/-..*case)?..*shot- &(sexually*/-..*molested!

?)


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bizarre'(bi-zar')adj.(F.,Fr.,It_,Sp.) bizarro**gallant fro 

Basque

bizar beard, whence the meaning*manly, *brave. Odd,

 extravagant orExcentric in style or mode; involving

 sensational contrasts

or striking incongruities-Syn.

see FANTASTIC-bi*zarre'ly, adv.bi*zarre'ness, n.

Creativity- is far cryfrom.. emotionalinstibility!

i.. liketh'way.. you smell(shesaid)

i.. liketh'way.. (shesaid)you smell

that'swhy..

(I did it!..you DIRTY

COPPERSI)(he..wasn't..worth(it)?

Alas..Others have been.. led..astray!

(it)is not easy in this lifetime?(To

Learnthe Truth-About OnesSelf?
)
Do you like

th'way..(my bra fits)? (or)..should(it)go- a little

lower?)
..the
y found

..the body(Inside..THE BIZARRE)BATHHOUSE

CA

SINO

Among the CARVED SEAHORSES..

(CURVED IN BRONZE-COPPER-METAL)

White Light
had bleached the..

beach. pieces

of MOTHER*NACRE(although*still*visible)

were(UP..FOR GRABS)!!


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i.. smell

th' way you(like) shesaid.

WHITE*CAPS

RIDING.
 .
ROUGH*WATER.. &WIND! WAVES*BROKE

(_GAINST THE BLACK*JETTYS!!)like.. heart 

pulsin'
repetitous rocks(Piled Up! for Low Tide!)we

 have..

BITTEN Off!more

(than we)can CHEW(shesaid)?

BETWEEN..

STAR*FISH..DRYING*OUT! &(notdying)?

SANDFRYED..BY SUN!!TH'SEA-GULLS CALLED..

(lovers-pickedbarefoot.. ) between

(th'shells)?

small pebbles.. liketrinkets.

we(both)smell..

th'way(similar)?

shesaid.

trinkets.. of Purple Pink!

(Mother of Nacre)KISSES..

likehands..unfolding?

& LOOK!

&(hewatched her!)Run.. both BEAUTY

 & WILD!-*WILL..?

run in her(NEW*LIFE)!! runn..Laughing & Splashing? 

Screaming?like..

smallchild. . (turned*loose).


LAST WEEKS'INDICTMENT OF NURSINGHOME

BOSS 

BARTHOLOMEW..


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LAWSON.. on charges(that he paid) $5000. to have/a 

Union TrailerOffice!/Blown Up!

Large Holes.. have been dug!

in several of th' gardens?

-which line- th' Street! (we fill themin..(then a (week*

later)?? &..they're backsays one man..Tom Paradisidice

who'sLived-on the Block

..for Years!43yrs...tobe


exact!..(he killed a rat!)?

that wasclimbing! (Up OUTSIDE 

NEIGHBOR'S

HOUSE!)"IT WAS..HEADED..FOR

TH'KITCHEN VENT".

(he..smashed(it)witha..shovel?)

WARLORDS.. OF MATRIMONY! SMILE! 

at..OFFSPRING!!(their*inheritance

their*instinct)?Smile Child- better

than Cry!? (than laugh-AGE OLD PHILOSOPHY)?

..th'(flower..gives th'(stamen)

to th'WIND! & we..should(do*no*better)?


..MARRY ME! MARRY ME!(she said..toth'

DRAGONFLY!!)? not seeing..his PREDACEOUS

 HOOKS?

..(NATURE HAS WARM..SENSITIVE EYES!)

Be GLAD FOR THAT AMERICA! 

..(th'Look of a Child) ..grown Adult?

"On a Blank Piece of Paper! (th'child wrote"YET WE 

FALL FROM CATEGORY"homework..

(a way of saying..i love you)!

I have decided(ironically-enough)that it..is impossible

- to continue(any-relationship)especially ours? 

The Kind of Woman that You Are- (beit Sympathetic

 or


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II

Romantic)which..at this point? is entirely unclear

to me?. &Must at -anothertime..be given closer attent

ion!?/ Your Explicit Needs- not to (SPEAK*OF)your-

CAPABILITIES(of which..seem NEAR*NIGH

 INEXHAUSTABLE)? not to mention..your BEAUTY

& GREAT EDUCATION!!? GOODLOOKS &..

with some DEGREE OF AOULT*GROWTH..IS 

TOLERABLE..& I GUESS?

to be..EXPECTED!! BUT I CAN'T GET OVER..YOUR

 LADYSHIP'S* CDMPLEX*..which is to be filed

 under(th'PLURAL GENDER).

I hope.. you/can forgive..myebrashness? but..the-


AMOUNT(!?)

of MONEY! (that(it)must take)?? TO KEEP YOU.. IN

 EYESHADOW

& LIPSTICK(not to say..TELEPHONECALLS)is beyon

d me! A Man

in MY POSITION(EVEN..WITHSOME..DEGREE OF

 AMBITION?)wouldlike..toput(SUCH*A..FINE 

FEATHER*INHIS..HAT!!)But..ofcourse(ifyouwish)

IWILLTRY..TO MAKE AMENDS..WITHMYE*

SPIRIT(foryour sake)?.but FROM_EVERY(FDRM..OF

LOGIC(itseems..tome)that.. I'M..ATA DISAD

VANTAGE! AMAN withlittle

 ORNOEGO(wouldfindit..difficult/tosay..theleast)lest..

forhis(yOURS&MINE)IFHE..PUSSYFOOTS*A*

ROUNO*both TOSHY..&(NOT_BLE..TOSTANDUP_)

??

..akindof MR. MILKTOAST!?.if you(please)? IDON'T*

KNOW!!

    IF

YOU..*UNDERSTANDME..WOROS(sometimes)PUT*

METOO

ATA..LOSS? But I THINK(Ihave..goodINTENTIONS)?

? To. PUSSYFOOT ..AROUND SUCH-A-STRONG*

WOMAN..IS BOTH(afulltime)JOB & TEDIOUS ..not to

sayONE..WITH(STRONG-or-HIGH CHEEKBONES!!)

 AsShe.. Said( "IHAVE. .HIGHCHEEKBONES_'.) I-.. 

WILL.. (LAST*LONGERTHAN-

MOSTWOMEN)WILL..isonething(FATE*IS*

ANOTHER)!! But you wererightYOUARE..INTHAT

 CLASS!!..FROMCARMEN..TOLADYMCBETH! 

HYSTERIA.. ISKNOWN(fromONLYTH-PURE*IN*

HEART!?(thebest..ofus)?The way you.."TWIST

 YOUR..HANDS"!! WITH(out)GUILT!

 Isbeyondme(oneLady..fromyourStature)One

 bothPrime&Foremost-. SoWhy ShouldI GoOn? 

(thisnote- is both inadequate &boring)&..

 (NOT*TH'BESTOF*WRITING)!! But THERE'S..

TH'CATCH!!

 this(feeling)DEEPDOWN*INSIDE*OFME?.Inmye

words if nottosay incontent! (I get a Pleasure..OUTA-

MYESEEMING-INADEQUA-cy? Thatmight..

 explainEVERYTHING..& 

MIGHT(COMEAS..A*SHOCK..TOYOU!!)(But..I kno

w this to be true!

th'sparrows.. flitted(around*ina*flurry) twittering &

 twitting?

th'..youngones(THISYEARSBIRD)? twoofthem

 tryedtoget(TH'ADULTBIRD'S)


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attention ..

(TOYOUNGYET- TOTAKEON*RESPONSIBILITY)

 bathed..inth'fountain?

untilone(WASCAUGHTbyea 'DOG:!,

Somuch..th'MERRIER!

shesaid.
th'MOB..gathered AROUNDAT1st!(INCURIO*

USITY)?LOOK-ING!

 UPIWNECOULD5EE!!..SOME(figure)HIGHOUT

*ONA*LEDGE?(th'SEX.. COULD notbe 

ESTABLISHED!!)? BUT(it)LOOKEDLIKE..

AWOMAN!! oratleast(AMAN..INWOMAN'S

CLOTHING!!)? Then..therecamea..VOICE! JUMP!

 JUMP! JUMP! The crowd..madea..MURMURING

NOISE?(Asth' fig..URE

 SEEM(TOMOVE)?.SHIFT/IT'S(POSITION..ON

THE(LEDGE)?? JUMP! JUMP! JUMP! The

 (TAUNT..WASREPEATED..(HIGHER*INTONE*

)? (THISTIME*)!! The figurethis..timeMOVED

 FOR SURE..TO-WARDS? THE..LEDGE?? One

Thought?(HOWCOULD..SHE*HE*IT)?? JUMP!

 JUMP!

 (There..came(thebody)(FREEFALLING..ATFIRST

..THEN(TURNING*OVER

 6TIMES)..SPINNING..SLOWLY..THEN(PLUNG

ING..FASTER*ASIT*HIT!! (the pavement..witha

(big*thud)!

END..OFTHEROAD..FORTORMENTED(YOUNG*

MAN) -the case of the solitary..

cyclist came.
.
     -to a GRIZZLY CONCLUSION:

this week when

     (all that was..left?)

of 16year-old

     ANTHONY SANDARCO

was found(floating)

     ..in the channel

off Staten Island.

"We fill.. them in.. then

(A WEEK LATER)(THEY'RE BACK)"

one man says?

The Early Morning

 HoursReveal..some(ofwhatth')NightTime 

Brings

(DEAD*MICE)litter..


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th'street! &1 saw.. (THREEE-LAYING THERE!! 

..th'other day!)Notesanother woman.

Should I give..

myeself over to you..(YOUR*OREAM*STATE)??

 yourWHI

MSEYS..yourFLAKEYFANATICAL*FAN*

TASYS..?

I .am sure(it-would)go Bad-(FOR ME! )We

 are..BENIGNbeing(BIROS-OF..OIFFERENT

 FEATHER?)It(Wouldn't..Work

n-'The Best of(OUR*IMAGINATION)Yours..or Mine?

(NoTask-is

Too Oifficult-EVEN*IF-THE GOAL..Is Not 

PERCEIVEO!!)An Attitude ..can be FOREVER!! 

BUT as- as tate-of MYE(ETERNAL INTEREST)of 

MIND!? One must HOLO*ONTO..(EVEN*IF?)..? I 

amsorry(YOUOON"T..SEEIT)thatway.. Shouldyou-

ever..Concern(YOURSELF? with..(SOMETHING*

MORE? ??))..I will be there!&as..usual(yu..cn-_mee)? 

ConSTANTLY(holdingyourhand)&..LAVISHING*

GREAT*PRAISE..on you!!..&offering You(MyeHand

kerch_f?)I BEFORE (E)..-EXCEPT-..(AFTER-C).

Hello?(A Collect Call from Helen?) No.. I don't have..


enough money. "YOU..HAVE MORE..MONEY

THAN YOU KNOW.. WHA T TO DO WITH"! No..

(thank you)I said
.
What About The Pot? What?(aboutwhat?) OH! OH!

 ALRIGHT!About th' Pot-O'-Petunias(&HertzRent-a-

Truck).. SOWE.. SO.. HERE'S(TH'SECONO*OAY)?

?(-WE'RE..MOVING! NOW..LISTEN TO THIS!! 

BATS!! BATS ARE FLYING AROUNO..(MYE

ROOM)? &I'M

 TRYING..TOSLEEPI'MSLEEPINGUP(N'TH'

ATTIC)? &BATSAREUP.. IN(MYE*ROOM)..&

ICAUGHT!

ONE! &PUT(IT*IN*AJAR)..SOIT'S

 ALONGEARREO*BROWNBAT).. SOTH'NEXT

MORNING.. IT'SABOUT 7:30..&(IAMGOINGFROM

 TH'..BREAKFASTTABLE?. 

&BACK(UPINTO)MYE..ROOM)?.TO(GET*

TH'BAT)? TOSHOW*EVERYBOOY.. TH'BAT!)..?

 CAUSE..EVERYBOOY(ALLTH'GIRLS)WANTEO..

TOSEE..TH'BAT? SOI'MCOMING..OOWN..

 &(LISTEN*TOTHIS)..THEYHAVE(NEWBORN

KITTENS!!)? LISTEN TOTHIS!!...TRAGEOY!!

 I'MNOT*KIOOING YOU? NEWBORNKITTENS?

6(OFTHEM)???                  &YOUKNOW(IF YOU 

KICK A KITTEN?)     IF(YOUKICK
..
AKITTEN??) AWOMAN..THEWOMANOF

 THEHOUSE_WILL(TURN*ON*YOU?)ASIFIT

WERE*..ONEOFTHECHILOREN)??

 _YMBOLICALLYSPEAKING!! &sureenough? Iwas..

 Iwas(LOOKING*INTO..THEJAR!!)? 

take(astride)..takin_another(stride)?

 &I'M..WALKIING(WF'MYE*BIG*BOOTSON??) &.. 

&I*

 MNOTTHE*TYPE(OFPERSON)(WHOEVER..STEPS

ONANYTHING)?? I'MALWAYS(VERYALERT)..


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I'VE..NEVERREALLY*DAMAGED..UH..ANYTHING

!?(NOTWITHMYE*FEET)LIKETHAT!..NO! NOW.. 

15EE..TH'CAT(TH'MOTHERCAT)?? 

&.. ALLTH'LITTLEKITTEN5(ALLAROUNDIT)? .

 &IA55UME..ALLL*TH'LITTLE

KITTEN5*ARETHERE?

 BUT..THI5(ONELITTLEKITTEN)WA5RIGHT..

THERE??                 Alittlegreycat? kitten? &he(she)?

blended..

right(into*th'rug)? BAROOM..BAROOM..BAROOM..

B A ROO M!

(&I'M..LOOKINGAT*TH'BAT)?

&..ALLOFA..5UDDEN!!ARGHHHH!!!

    &1.. REALIZED!!?(THERE5..UH THERE5.UH 

THERE5UH!!)?

BUNDLE(a small bundle)? over there.. 

&I(CAN'T5TOP..MYEFOOT?

..IT'5*TOOLATE!! IT'5*TOOLATE!! 

    &RIGHTACRO55..THEEDGE

OF(MYEBOOT)..th'little(kitten)goes..   KerFlop!     

itrolls..

about(overtwice)? &YELP5!OUT!.. &I5AW..

 BLOODGU5HING!!!(nowreally)? ..&I5AID(OH!

 MYE GOD!!)

  WHAT(HAVEI.. HAVE I.. 5TEPPED(ON)!!??) 

have(I)stepped

on(IT)'5 head?? oh!I..firstofALL*I*(DIDN'T*BE*

LIEVE*IT)??

 WHERE(DID)ALL*THATBLOOD(COMEFROM)??.

 YOUKNOW(IJU5T)..

 THOUGHT(I)..I'DKNOCKED*TH'WIND(OUTA..IT)!! 

Outtahim/herP &..

THENTHI5BLOODCAME(GU5HIN'OUT)!!?   &Isaid..

oh! oh!oh!

Isaid..uh!  uh!    HEYMAC! MAC!COME HERE!!   &..

(WHENEVER(I5AID)THAT!)??

 CAROLE..th'WOMAN(OFTHEHOU5E)KNEW!?

..what(itwas)? sheknew(Ihad).. gottenon(oneofth'..

littlekittens..?   50..    THEBLOOD5GU5HINGOUT..

&..MACINDOE(HADA*KNAPKIN.. INHI5*HAND)? 

&BOY!


 IMMEDIATELY..HE5TART5WIPIN'(IT...UP!!!)

*LIKE..CRAZY!! Whha..are youdoing?HA-HA-HA-HA-hehe? 

(Isaid..that's..not(goingto..do anything..er'good!!? 

IMEAN..YOUKNOW..youknow??Ha-Ha-Ha-He?

 IMEANyouknowyouknow..th'catsgoing{todie)?

Thekittens..going(to

die)?Ha-Ha_Uhhhh Wha:t(areyoudoing?)      What(are..

youdoing..

?? Hesaid(they-maybe)if(theydon't)see th/blood.. 

they(won'tget)excited?(hewhisperedtome?)

 IsaidMac..thatdoesn't..thatdoesn't(THAT'5._VANITY!!

-THAT'S

.. HAHA..THAT..OOE5N't..RIGHTTHING5(like..LIFE

orDEATH!!)?

50UH!.. th' littlekittenthen..startsyelpin'

 &..startsbellowingout..squeeling(out-&

CHOKING ON TH'BLOOD!!)

&..                       crawlsintoth'(fireplace)?

   (&th'ashes..&..startsbellow

ingout..&(chokingon(allthat)blood!?)

&soMaclndoe..didasmartthing!

 hepulled(it)outofthere)&he..tiLted(it)UP!

 &th'blood..isrunning(outof(it's)nose).. &(it'srunning

(outof.. th'mouth&nose)?


 &&..(it'snot)goingdownth'throat)&&..choking

(it)? Now..(ha-ha)50ALLDAYLONG--

   WEWE(TOOKIT)TOTH'(VET)!

&5HEFINALLY..5AIO(5EEHERE!..(TH'ONETHING

..THAT5HAPPENED**INTHAT HOUSE!

 ((THAT'5EVEN*MORE OF A TRAUMA!!?)

 THEY(HAD'DACAT*

.. JHAT(BIT)..INTO(AN*ELECTRIC*CORD!!!!!!)??

 &(HE*JU5T)*TH'..


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ELECTRICITY*JUST(ATE*OUT)..TH'(WHOLE

(MOUTH..OFTH'CAT)))))? Shetookit*toth'(VET)..

but&(FOR 9MONTHS..she(fed)this(cat)?)

..butth'cat.. it(ALL*HEALEO*OVER..but..(ithas)N

Oroof

INth'mouth(imean..(itsmouth)?))

 NO..ROOF(OFTH'MOUTH(NOW)I!?

ITJUST..TH'ELECTRICITY..JUST(ATEUP*THE

WHOLE*MOUTH)I!!

           (JUST*ATEUPTHAT(WET)!!? MOUTH!!?? 

ALLII?

so.. SHEOION'T(WANTTOGO..THROUGH(WITH*

THIS!)

 ITWAS..ITWASTOO(TRAUMATIC..OF(AN*EX

PERIENCE)I!? FOR(9mouth..er'months)

 (SHEHAOTO..FEEOTHISCAT..TH'STHIS(TWIST

EO*MONTH(er..mouthY)?

         Idon't(know..what(it)? Mouth-OPENEO&..ALL

(Idon't

  know..)fumes? odors..? alltha-..blood!?) SOI..SHE

SAIO..IF(IT'S*GONNA*LIVE?SAVEIT!

 IFYOU(CAN*SAVE(IT)?IFNOT..

JUST..PUT(IT*TO*SLEEP)?? (SOWETOOK(IT..

 OFF)..TOTHE(VET)!!&WER'E(RUNNING*

OFF(TOTH'VETII)..

 &th'littlecat/er'(kitten)..youknow(there'snothing_

icouldsay?)

youknow..

 I..KNEEWWWW!(THATI*OION'T..(HIT)TH'

LITTLE(CAT).. VERY(HARO)!! II..

COULON'T..UNOERSTANO??(whereallth'blood..

 wascoming(from)?? I musthave..steeppedonits(head)?

 or(i)kickedit(init'slungs)?? YouKnow??

 &&&(itsits)hemorraghings? on..th'(inside)?

(where's(allthis)blood..comingfrom? Sowetookittoth'

VET! )
Iwentalldaylong.. Weloadedanother..12hrs. 

(weworked-almost..15hrs.

 almost..18hrs...before(wegotback)toPrinceton

.) In(fact)&..found(out)..thatth'little(kitten)..

only  hada(bloody*nose). that(i)hadhit..(it)justright

onth'(little)nose.      &(youknow)how(theyare)so*soft?

 they..

were(justbarely)walking? ..&all? ButI..couldn't(figure

(it*out) ..youknow? ..&(Ihit*it)so..lightly?

 &&wahtwhatisthis..blood?

 youknow..&so(itturned)(out)..it(only..was a bloody 

nose.

&.. atth'edge/ofthe/jaw?) there'salittle.. whatwhat.. 

theguy(called a split-lip)?. which(it)wasonlyalittle..area

 ..aboutthis(big)?.alittle- split(theyareso..soft?) 

aaathisatthat(stage)? where..&for(3hoUrs..&3hours 

when &3hourslater.. whenwhen..after(it)happened?

(thelittle..kitten..was runningaround

attacking*(hisher)brotherssisters!     &whenI..    go

thome

thatnight..(it)gotup..&started(PLAYING & EVERY

THING)! TH'WOMAN.. 

butth"woMAN..(TURNEOONME..(THEN)? -

TH'(VERY*WOMAN)..That

 hadtried..(togetme)..intoth"Swimmi:ng*Pool?

 &took(off)allherclothesshe's(A..BEAUTIFUL*WO*

MAN)!I..SH'SVERY..PRETTY..SH'SBUILT*VERY..

 FANTASTICI! 

&&&&SHEs..VERY*ATTRACTIVE..SHE'SA..PICES!! So..


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..&Soshe(trysto)enticeme.. intoth'Pool?

 &Itellher(NOWLOOK..I'M..NOTGETTING..INTO

(THAT*POOL)WITHYOU.. I'M..

 GOING(TOGO)INALLTH'WAY!!)..IAMNOTJUST

(GOING)TOGET(INTH'POOL)

 ..YOU(AREGOING*TOHAVE)TO(EMBRACEME)..&

I'M..GOINGTOGO(IN)!!

UH..&UH..SO   yesss.. wellanyway..

SOUH.. YOUR'E.. going(toeat)? ..uh

(justalittle(cake)? ..uh..justalittle?

AREN'TYOU(SWEET*TONITE)?

 LOOK..I'mgoingtocommitSUCIOE(ANYWAY

TONIGHT).. it'sNOTGOINGTOHELP!!

heISSOSWEETTONIGHT!!(IDON'TWANTTOKNOW

..WHAT'S..

GOINGON!? ) well.. 501.. SOUHH!!.. ITURNED..

 OUT(TH'LIGHT!(&IT)TURNED OUT..THATUH..

 WERE'COMINGBACK!!

 FROM(LOADING..THE'SECONO*NIGHT)!!?

 WE{ATESUPPER)..&THEN.
.
WE(WENT*OUT)..OUTTO'WORK!

heworkedhard.. &all(he)achieved.. inth'end..was

Beigebutts.

th'repetition..th'petaled soul?

(Lost in forethought?.

shedressed in Pink)

BLONDE IN FROM VIENNA! looks better..

than(I) expected! slightcrook?.UnderHer

Double(chin)? STRONG*SWING*OF*LEG..

DOWNTURNED*FEATHERS

..on her hat!

LONG-Nose (couldmakeadrawingCLASSICALMODEL

..th'past?
-CARVED IN ROCK!) ..like the CIRCLE?

likea(COMPLETE*FLOWER)..forthe

(plucking) ..LOST(MYE)POWER..TO

(NAVIGATE)!!

(questionmarkonhis-lip.)

(Me & my wife were coming

here to drop)..myesonoff?)

recounts..Philip_itzPatrick..(AND A 

DEAD RAT..THERE..

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..RIGHTon..theFLOOR}!? LIKE: Late one night(Isaw..

two
..(cats)I thought-itwascats?) ..THEN I SAW..TH'

LONGTAILS..??

  along the..horizion..flames

(PINK SEA BIRDS)Red

  PINK POWDER! (CON*Descending too!


th'kind..onyour'cheekbones)YOUSEE!!
  ..fromth'Mind!(BLACK POWDER-N'EYES


  HELMETS!I)setat..rightangles?

(TO*HE*BEIGEBUTTSI)..a toast!
                     
after

theyheard..miscellaneous..middleassed
song? Outclassed

BYEO'ARK*GLASSESI

probing..into(th'pits!) REALITY*STARING(-MeInto

Th'Face?)

             TO*BEABLE*TOSING*AGAIN?

th'song..divided..into(th'SOFT*HORIZION?)

             WHEWI(Howth'KEY*FITSI)

how..th'(KEY*TURNSI)

                ANDIF

                     IF..(i ever get out?)

                        ofthismess? LOCKED IN I I


                       ..(HAPPINESSwf'aSMILEI)
                        each-plume-lost-{n'lOVE?)

THATWILLNOTDO..shesaid.

walking..in(1ft. of water

       tracksrunning..in2di
rections)?
I must retain/th'difference(split/downmiddle?

       INTRO-VSEXtroVERS_E or VISION..)


I must in noway/LOSEth'DANCE?Forth'SONG??

       LikeatIntervals?Of-th'World?


I must FIND*THE*COLOR*..of LOVE?A DOVE N'

       ..matter..with(out)content!

Content*Wif'OUT..WOODAGE?

..enragedth'(Look of th'

          bewildered Quarry?)

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I came/as fast as I couldlWHEN I HEARD

OF YOUR..DELIMMA!? They(toldme)you 

wereat the HOSPITAL?IT..

CAME AS NO SHOCK TO ME!(the

way you had been acting

for the past(TWOWEEKS)??

what can i(say?morethani_already-have?)

(YOUR CRAZYNESS! HAS FINALLY*GOT..OUT 

OF HANOI)?

               try..towritedown..yourthoughts?

               (..awrist(CANNOTTAKEMORE..THAN(ONE*

HYPHEN)?)?

AND(BOTTICELLI'S SPITOUT.. TH'FLOWERS?

FROMHIS.. VENUS?'S(mouth) )
Princess Margaret says.. (jealousy
-i

s- no concern)? Di & Charles(argue)..

over- PrinceWHATS HIS NAME..?

therewere..novisible marks.. left on the body?

husband says..he found wifedead? &..20"T.V. SET 

MISSING!!

th'TULIPS thenth'..GERANIUMS

come&go..(inseason)?

th'STATUE STILL..

STANDS!

Policesay..(they are trying..to(figureout)?

why

a Brooklyn Lady? who-..-was sunning

on?

a Brooklyn Rooftop!(wasshotltodeath!)?

Isay..FLOATIN'LIKE..A(FOURPOINTED*STAR)

th'SILVERMOTH'S WHITEWINGS??_ (layontop-of..

 thtTOILETS*YELLOWURINE!!))

whyareyou..so Macabre?shesaid

.. (iam..interestedin..theWORLDHESAID I)


40

theydanced(InThePastryShop)between..

th'WeddingCakes &ChocolateCovered*

Cherries..
(it'ssoNice..toSee! someone HAPPY!)

..&with..SOME5TEM*N'MOUTH!!

6/16/84

Found- &Lost!(lastnite..Ginsberg)gaveaway..5INGING!
?
(WILLIAM*PATTERSON*COLLEGE)

KNOWLEDGE/nowof..Jana Harris?

 shesshould..trysohard..(MostTalentedOne?)5Princess

/ofHardKnocks!..gonesoft..fromCalifornia?

 &TH'MACABRE*DEATH*GODDE55!-Anne

Waldman? alas..(5WAYIN'likea PUPPET! WAR

LORDE55!) supportin'er' HIGHNE55..WAR-LORD'S

 PoliticalTheorys!of..

ANTI-WAR ANTI-L

OVE ANTI-EVERYTHING!

ANTI-POETRY! (outaluckonlife?)

THE ULTIMATE 5UPREME*MORALISTS?

 morals/wrinkles(itsuglyhead)&n'worseway..

 PETER*ORLOVSKY..(man-i-kin)?? 

..WAVIN'/&GE5TURIN'..&NODDIN_!!!(..like

COURTJE5TER)to EVERYTHING(like)A*OK*GURU

I5M!!? _.toeverywhimsey(ofth'GEMINI'5*DUAL

*HEADS

..ofCOMMUNIPERFORMANCE?)

 ..WHATHAVEYOUDONE_afterMINDBREATH5?

Ginsberg.. ..yes..Ginsberg..(OLDMAN MUMBLING-)

 ..wf'(ONE*EYE*COCKED)like Rembrandts' ..KING*

50LOMON?-You'11nevermakeit!)to..Th'PENTAGON!! 

&ONECORRUPTION..deservesanother?

 ..YE5..0LDMAN(asgenius..soDI5CONTENT!!) 

..5INGING..th'POPULAR*IDIOM


..ofa MIDDLECLA55ED*PERFORMANCE?

 ..goosingyour..(I5RAELI*FOLK50NG5..

TOTH'WIND!!)

GOD..HOWIT RAINED!! THATNIGHT!!!!

            ..&(i never read..MR. WIGleyCUM5..

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The problem..firstcameto..our attention? when Alice 

Tribaudo(an-aide

..to AssemblyWoman..Jane Rebuno)?

 toldus..ofproblems(thatsomeBensonhurst people..

 were*having..with*rodents.)

2blindmice..2blindmice..atesomeCHEESE&SWALLOW

ED..th'DICE!!SO NICE..

 ..LOOKED*INTO*THECAMERA&saidCHEESE..

PLEEZE!!THRICE!!!

..weseem..tobeCRAWLING..INRATS!!(stepbystep)?

when(it)wasborn? thechild became2ndinLINE.. to(th'

BRITISH THRDNEafter..CHARLES).

like
catch-catch can

in Israel or Iran(THELOSERS..NEVERWIN!!)?

This girl..in(RedShorts)

hasjogged..AROUND THE ENTIRE PARK..

    32times-(HUFFING&PUFFING)

&hasyet..tocomeup..withone(GOOD LINE OR BLADE


 OF GRASS)?
..things of remembrances..Past? eh?Whitman/Proust?

We wish to thank you for your cooperation in
 sendingphotographs &/or slides of your work/for the

 consideration of the Award Committee for Art/which we/are returning
to you herewith.
We regret/that we/are unable to include/your work in

 our FDRECOMINGEXHIBITIDN/but we hope/we 

may be able to calli upon you again/..i_ the nearf_ture
.
somesuggestion:Hello?

hello-somesuggestion:some..(weknow..that)?but

circle th'circle..th'professionalcircle/th'-circle..inth'park!

 when I first noticed(BEIGEBUTTS..pasttense)? littering

 up?(th'area..D)?


42

sunning themselves/nearth'fountain..

thisyear unlike (anyother ) 1. . & 1-there is no..water?

 ..th'spigit/isstill..there

..butth 'water?
..this_is 'unlikeanyother(*YEAR)? ..thereis..nowater!!!

thatiswhy..(I came to the circle)
_
..th'center(ofth'self!)? stillexists!(Me-You)infact/An-

inclusion..wateringdown(Axiom)er'th'center(A_ia)I

..don'tknow(whogaveer'..reason/orauthority-) tocut..

(th'water)off? ThenInoticed(them(beigebutts)d-lit*tering
up! Th'place)!!
&remembered..th'dogs..running & jumping! -

inth'circle/withan..occasional(chill)? ..dog&child?

 holdingout..fromhisparents/DDGGONE! SOME EXCIT

EMENT! WATERFLYING..EVERYWHERE!! 

..Somesaid-butth'-cigarett-BUTTS(e)

wereup/forgrabs!! onlyfilters?.growingon..

anoccasional-stem? filtersdry..no(nicotine*left)?

then(it)became..evidenttome-th'pulltops-? ??

th'lids..insome(greatnumber)were(competing.. bent)on-

with(in-beigebutts)as..symbol? Mostfilters?

(lookalike?)likehumansdo..(thatwillwill..neverdo)?

 That!/willneverdo/withoutth'(COMMERICALSTAMP!)of

..letters/stillmissing?

 likeabook?/fromletterless(NoFood!NoThrill!)Look!! 

The High & Dry..Th'UpLift!!?/th'subjectwithout..th'verb

?Curb..that(INSTINCT!)Yess..

but..th'beigebutts(onth'grass?)weresunning?/some

scientific..somescantily-clad? (inlines..denotingFASH_

ION)?Bad er Sad


43

some-yearn-forburn/somefor-real-TRUTHYEARN&

BURN?shesaid..&whatis..real-TRUTH?(shesaid?)

.. (it )is.. youtMye. .Darling I

but we know!(TRUTH IS MULTIPLICIPLEI)

 morethan..fragmentsof/th'Circle? brokendown/hetried/

whotried?Itriednottoadmit..thatYEATS?

 Butth'trouble/inwriting(BEIGEBUTTS..convincedme?

like-PRINTWORLD..)

convincedme?


TITLE           GALLERY    DATE  PRINTSIZE     

EDITION
***************************************************************
CURRENT EDITIONS:

Bona-Fide Death At U-Haul      ART     1974   51/4"x5"
University

Nixo Gene(War)  ART  1974

Princess Oceana(EastHampton)ART 1974 Cigarchrist

At Absurd V-Mass ART 1974

My Cowkissll ART 1974

Susan With Dress UP!   ART     1975

puntar'spayment(18 Etchings) ART 1976

CatWoman Of Houston St.  ART     1976

Coke-Cocla Cigar-Christ! ART 1977

Helena Of Pudena(Doing-Palmas) ART 1977

MOnnie 50Hea ART 1978

Fuck's F'rnack Hera Sinndy- ART 1979

dro..mme(!)?

Federer'sLemoa!

-12Gauge 6 1/2Shot-ART 1980 33Y4"x3" 


"Man On Crutches(With...*Lunch*pail!)"?

Woman Squatting..N'(MAD*I*-SON*SQ.PARK!(?)"

50

9"x6" 50 9"x173/4" 50 3"x173/4" 50 2"x2" 50 7 3/8"x8" 50
7 1/8"x7 7/8" 50 5 1/8"x5 1/4" 50 5"x41/4" 50 6 1/4"x4 5/8" 50
5 1 /4"x5" 50
5"x8" 50
50
ART
1980 2 1/4"x2 1/4" 50
ART
19
80 2"x2 1 /8"
50
Note(All Etchings) Price-an-Request!

Artist-SOLDOUT! ARTIST is in delimma!
             
&..inneed(Of*Money)?

Hello..hello-(butth'-BeigeButts?(-onth'Grass-?

44
)) were*sunning..burning*(mi_htconsume/..

-meth'consume)? that'sa goodone/Mr.

Beige..thanI_understand?)Yousee..ButtsSir-,Butts!?


&..thatdid(it)? ASSinth'CIRCLE! ASKth'CIRCLE? 

Shelikeyou(shiftsher- position!

Gainstth'CIRCLE&lifts??)th'DRESS!!?

 Butwhatif..(th'watermight(dryup)&leave us??)

 th'DRYNESS..FOLLOWS(US*BOTH..TOTH'
*
GRAVE)? 

&she..shelikeyou(showin'more Beige?

 than..meetsth'eye?)(showin'moreBUTTS?)

 thanever..Iexpected..said(AWLC'MON!)

 YU'LL..(NEVER*GIT*..TOHEAVEN*/-..ONA*

CINN-AMON*/-..*BROOMSTICK!)?

.&me..sittingback..(&staring/atth'APPLE..n'th'MIRROR??)


Hello/-..Hello?(Its a'.. collect call-

for Philip?)..-Person to..-Person?

hello.."he's not here?"

(HECERTAINLY..IS!! THAT'SHIM..SPEAKING!!)

     OPERATORI!(your'e call..isthrough!I)?

..hellohoney?.it'sme..Helen!/..&(justwantto..tellyou
     
ILOVEYOU!)(thatsnottrue..LOOK!)

FOR(FIFTHTEENYEARS..IT'SBEEN..TRUE!!)

Drinking..Money & Water! Water & Money..&th'Circle? 

going..around(ForFift_teen*Years)drinking?

I'MRICH!!..MYEUNCLE*SAUL..(died..&mymother..

got(it)th'BITCH!! &I..I'MA..DECANERE!!

 NO*MILLIONS..FORME!!) (decadentanyway..Isaid)

mye UncleSaul(whispered..inmyear)?

 ..money&water/money&water/&th'circle?

 thisforthat..dearDAUGHTER!I?

danglin'(N'FRONTOFME?)..th'CIRCLE?

 ..&I(GOTRELIGION..WF'APIGEON!!)..

comesee/come-..sah?

LOOKINGCLOSER/atth'CIRCLE?.

 (CIRCLING..aroundth'CIRCLE)?

(GREEN*DARK*LEAVESIDOMINATEDBYE..

BEIGE/SNAKING*BUTTS)? LIMBS..ofaPECULIAR*

ORDER? (LIM8S/LEAVES/MONEY/WATER..)

OUGHTER..

BOUT..(DO*IT)DEAR*DAUGHTER!!?

Thatguy..really(about)ruinedyou?

(pasttense)?Imean

.. LOOKIHEWASHEDME..FEDME..

45

BOUGHT(MYECLOTHES?&TOLDME..

TO. . BRING (HOME) TH"BACON! !? )

WHAT MORE..CANYOU(ASK?.&

WIPED. .MYASS!!)?

Don'tbeCrassBut/..strife..N'THISLIFE?

 WILLvsLOGIC(TRAGIC)FATEvs

WISDOM? how..doesthatgrabyou? how..

doesthataffectus? 

NOJOKE'WORTH(TRYIN'TOESCAPE)? 
S
..TH'RIDDLE?

   (WHOLET*TH'WATER..

         OUTA..TH'CIRCLE?)

LOOKIN'CLOSER.. atth'CIRCLE!/circling/around..th'

CIRCLE? -anothertype..ofCIRCLE?(Twoofthem..

-came/arriving..atsame(time)?)

-wf'BeigeShapes?(call(it)adog?

-dogs ! BeigeTerrier !wf 'Butts?

-&plenty..ofcommon(sense)?

SomeMetaphor..wf'out

AnyLiving(SYMBOL)!!

-ABALL!! _OFGREEN!! -(GREEN*DARK*

LEAVES)! -DOMINATEDBYE?/BUTTS?

/SNAKING

LIMBS.. -somuch..forthat!

-(th'littlegirl? -in(REDTOP)..went.. -th'otherway.. -

(IHUNG..UP! )

but..th'water??

like..molecules*moving??

(inanempty/room)? wf'out..talent? (TH'MINDS*

MIRAGE/mirage-

like..n'(mi*razh')n.(F.,Fr.mirer..tolookat/carefully..

air/semirer/tolook..

atones elf? inaglass

? reflect..bereflected!? fr.VL.mirare/tolook-at?

 1.AnOptical..Phenomenon

producedby.. astratum..ofhot? air..varingin/ intensity?

(er'airvarying..density/ accross..whichth'/ observer..sees

 REFLECTIONS?) usually..(INVERTEDof..some

distance?) distantobject? or..objects/2.Something..ILL-

USOR

Y? ..likeaMIRAGE/-CIRCLE-/money/-water7

RATS! ! shesaid.. The(peopleof..West24thSt.)-arescared

46
scaredthat.. theremay(simply. .be. no way)?

 ofstopping..the(FURRY*LITTLE*CREATURES)?

 WHO..HAVE(COMEUP)..FROM(BELOW_?

(imean..really!..said(onewoman)whoask

ed..nottobe..identified?)

..soyousee?

..BeigeButts!presents..aproblem?

..Whatwas/th'Score?(1Bto3)!

..WESLAUGHTEREO..THEM!!

but..ifas(in)/th'm_rage?/th'hotcircle? 

..returns?(likeina..desert?..it'sWATER

we..seek!) ..worth(two)BEIGEBUTTS! ..-

th'CIRCLEinaweek!?

but..burning..n'circles..shesaid(AROUN'

Oth'MIND)? ..th'moneybush/inashes?

&theycame..froma..far

WISEGUYS! (er'WISEMEN/fbllowin'aSTAR)..fromth'

Fields?(OFBURNING*CIRCLESOF..BEIGEBUTTS-

OFWATER*/Frankinsence

&Myrrhh!)..&RATS!

(like..Bach-heopened(it)up!DN*TH'FOURTH

NOTE!!
                                   ofTH'FIFTH*CIRCLE)!

Dear Customer:

Just a few days from nowwhen your entry arrives-

 at the Clearing House--(A*LUCKY*NUMBER)-


...ABSBLUiELY WINS!!

you a PRIZE WORTH $5.00 FOR SURE...and possibly 
much much more


such as (WATER or LEAVES-& BEIGEBUTTS!!)

 ...ABSOLUTELY GUARANTEES!

you THREE*OPPORTUNITIES*TO*WIN

from
 3(FULL*SETS*OF*FREE*PRIZES)including..3

(GRAND*PRIZES)?

...ABSOLUTELY gives you

A*SHOT at the$250,OOO.OO SUPERPRIZE!! (a-

 miracle Bonus on top of


47


A COpy OF BEIGEBUTTS! &..

ANY(CIRCLE*AWARD)..you may WIN!!

..leaves & bits(of paper)..small(whirlwind?)

 ..goingaround..inacircle?

th'SnapDragons..thenth'Liliescome&go..(inseason)?

th'Statue

stillstands..

"you can'tsaythatyou..cansitouthere..

orsit- anywhere..thesepeople sitintheir..yard/they

sit..intheir..yard&theysee.. them-running

intheir..yard?

he(pointing..

toa man)?-caughtone

(inhis..window!)

Dear Mr.

Blank!

As your President, I..

am calling upon you to make a*most 
unusual sacrifice.

Not the kind of sacrifice that
a National Emergency might requireof you

your children or your grandchildren but BEIGEBUTTS 
has to be protected 
from foreign invasion.

I must ask all of you to make thisSACRIFICE for

 BEIGEBUTTS & our country. For this reason(I am
 personally inviting you)to become a member of the

4B

"PRESIDENTAL*TASK*FDRCE"!! And you are 
urgently neededHere's why:

          one fellow
saw a neighbors dog(GDLIATH)-carrying something
in-his-mouth:

He picked(it)up&..KILLED(it)?
&..what we saw

. .was a rat?

Police

say..(they are trying..to(figureout)?
how
a Brooklyn Lady? who- was runningon(topof)

a Brooklyn Rooftop!(wasknifed!todeath!)?

Isay..FLDATIN'LIKE..A(FIVEPDINTED*STAR)

th'JEWISHMDTH'S BRDWNWINGS!!((layontop-of.. 

th'TDILETS*GREENURINE!!))

whyareyou..so Melancholy?shesaid.. (iam..interestedin..

theSTATE-(DFTHINGS)HESAID!)

th

d
eydance

(InThePornoShop)between..

th'DildoCakes &ChocolateCovered*Cherries..

(it'ssoMean..tohear! someone SAD!)


..&with..SDMESTEM*N'MDUTH!!

Melancholy(mel'an. kol'i or esp.Brit.,-kul.i)n.;

pl.Cholies(Df. melancolie, fr.LL., fr.GR.melancholia, 

fro melas,-anos, blackIchole( gallbile)l. Archaic & Hist.

 Athick(darkacridbile?)

-formerly imagined to be

a (SECRETION-of the KIDNEYS or SPLEEN?)


49


&the causeof GLOOMINESS? -

IRASCIBILITY*orMENTAL..OEJECTION?

 later..MELANCHOLIA
.
2.(a)OEPRESSION ofSPIRITS?-dejection

. (b)PENSIVE*MEOITATION?-Syn. seeSADNESS?? 

-adj. 1.SUGGESTIVE orEXPRESSIVEof

MELANCHOLY..orDEJECTION?

DISMAL? DEPRESSING? 2.ProducingSADNESS?

 LAMENTABLE? -asa

MELANCHOLY(EVENT)??

 3.SERIOUSLY..THOUGHTFUL..orMEDIATIVE?(ly)? 

PENSIVE?

..th'sparrows..inth'park? ..&th'dogs..did(bark)?

..another(woman)

claimed..thata..neighbor? had(complained)?

of a mouse(RUNNING PAST-HER FEET)?

in her bathroom?

& th' CIRCLES. . OFth'..MIND(REPEATED-th'CIRCLE

S?)

-OFth'..EYE(WATER..&MONEY)??

THATSHALL..NOTDO..shesaid.

..engaged..th'LOOK-(

..ofth' BEWILDERED*QUARRY)?



"DOYOU..TAKE..THISMAN??-" 

-MARRYME!! MARRYME!!(nowshe..

said.)?

-INTO_OLY*MATRIMONY?-inTHROBBING 

MINDBEAT.. -th'THOUGHTS!!INCREASED!!

moreTHINKING(..thanSONG!!)..(without*statement)??

whatabout..th'POT?


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whatsthat? aboutth'POT! youknow! whataboutth'POT? 

youmean? Pot-of-Petunias?

&..Herti?-Rent-A-Truck?

..yeah.. OH! OKAY!.. wellheregoes.. UHHHH 

IIIIUHHH.. (I)TURNEDOUT (IT)TURNEDOUT..

 THATUH.. WER'ECOMINGBACK..FROM

LDADING TH'SECONDNIGHT!! WEEATSUPPER!!

 &THENWEW[NT

..OUTTOWORK? &notonly..this     th'WODJE'Sarevery

nice...
people! WODJE&Caroldecide...

 he..hedecides(hewantsto)hefeels(guilty) that(heisn't..

helpingus)? &hewantstobelong.. SOat2:30atnight

(we'refinishingth

'meal?)&..hesays OKAY! !LETS(GOUNLOAD*NOW)!

 ! &(ILOOKED*ATHIM)? AreyouCRAZY!?

 You&Carole(gotobed)&&.. Ken&Iwillgo(&UNLOAD)

?&&.. &Conniesaid.. I'mGoingToo! 

I'mGoingToo!&&..prettysoon(everybodYisgoing)?

YOUCAN*IMAGINE?. Sowegointoth'Truck(Connie-

I&Ken) wedrive(it)overto..totohisplace? .. 

whichisabout(15minutesaway..it's30minutesaway-

20to30minutesaway)? ..

fromPRINCETDNintoUH!  HOPEWELL*JUNCTION
   
&UHHH..

WEUNLOA

D!! ..&WEGETTHROUGH!!

 &I'MDRIVING(THETRUCKBACK(&SUDDENLY

ConnieDECIDES..)Shedoesn't.. SheShewantstotaketh'

WINE) thatwe'd..thatsh'dbought(&take(itback)in..withth'

car?) .. because(shethought-itwouldbesafer?)..thanleave

(it)inth'TRUCK!!? SOSHE..JUMPS(INTOTH'CAR!!) 

SO (THEYDRIVEOFF!!)? &Ken&I..ARESITTING..

 THERE(TALKING)! 

&WE'RETALKINGABOUT*ALOT*OFTHINGS)?

b'CAUSEI'M..WORRIED(ABOUT*ALOT*OFTHINGS

!!)? somethings?IseeIsee..thatWoman

 thatWOMAN'S..gonnaKILLME!! THATWOMAN'S..

GONNAKILLME!! (why?) &Itryedtotell..well..Connie!

SHE ..I'MAFRAID? SHE'SNOT..FORTH'BETTER?

 FORMAC..ISEE(ALLSORTS*OFTHINGS!)SHE..

 WANTSTO*BELONG*TOPRINCETON(&allthat)..

&&IWARNYOU..about CERTAINTHINGS! 

I'M..TELLING(YOUcertainTHINGS)&hesaid..he's

BEGINNING(TOSEE)?(CERTAINTHINGS..)??

 ..SOMETHINGS..TOO!?(that..BOTHERHIM)?.that

(botherhim)?.

 ANYWAY..THEN..NEXTTHING(WEKNOW)..IS-

THAT(SHEWOULDN'T*EVEN.. LEAVE(US)

ALONE??) SHE(HADTHEM)DRIVETH'..CAR..

BACK!! to see

whywe(weren't..comingon!!)?

 &EXTREMELY*JEALOUS*WOMAN!! ..SOWE

DRIVE!! SOSOSO..

SOTHENI(GOTANGRY..&..&IDROVE(THAT*

 TON..&1/2TRUCK!! OUTTATHERE!!) (IT)..WAS

ONE OFTHOSE.. BIGONES!! GGGRRROOAANNNN

innnnnn... GGGROOOAAAANNNinnnnn... &UHHHH

.. I'MDRIVING(SOFAST!!THATWE..GET(RID*OFTHE

M))..(BUT)IMAKE*AMISTAKE!!!? &IUGHH.

. &I..&I(HAVETOWHEEL..IN)? BECAUSE(THEYPICK(USUP)? 

THATTTCAR


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(HASSUCH..PICKUP..YOUKNOW)?IT'SUHHH..

 IT'SUHHH.. WHAT(ISTHAT..CAR)?? THATCAR..

ISUHHII? (IDROVE(IT)..0UTATH'AIRPoRT!!?.

ToPICKUP..

THATKID??) thiskid..that's

 uhh..{thatkid..tha'FLEWN'..FRoMDENVER)??.

 thatWASGoNNA(PLAY..withtheir-son?) 

&SHEwanted..me(ToDRIVE)TH'CARII)?

&WHATS-AMAZIN'..yoUKNOW? isThat..

yoUknow(yoUcould..

   BE_OUTTHERE!!&..)-(thoseWoMEN..JUST

(TAKEoVER)!! they

just-DECIDE..whatTHEY!!(WANTyoU..toDo!I)?

 &EVERYTHING..? ..(CoURSE..YOU'RE..STAYING*FREE..&EVERY

THING!!)? &EATING..&(ALL*THAT!) BUTstill- 

youknow? THEY..BEGIN(To*USE)YOUr!

 ..ATWILL!I(BUTSTILL..THEY-

(BEGIN(To*USEyoU)..ATWILL??)

   ..&I.. II Idon' t-     like(that) !  (that )-reallygoes..

against(me)!? ..thatreally.. issomething! 500... 

WHAT..HAPPENS(ISTHAT)..I'MTRYING..(To

DITCH*TH'CAR)!! &I-

.. REALIZE(that..IT..ICAN'T*DITCH(IT))?

 SoI..JUSTWHEEL(INTo)THIS..FIlLINGSTATIoN!I)

 ..PARK&TURN(oUT..TH'LIGHTS!!)

and..theycomedriving.. along(up!) Laughing

(youknow)

?   Ken&I..(are..there)? ..&there'relaughing?  &theysay..

well(yoU..CAN'T(GETAWAY)FRoM..US- canyou??

    &SoTHEN..

Carolebacksout.. &startsdriving..thecar(aroundthe..

block)?
..&THEN(I)..BACKoUT.. &THEN(I)DIDIT!! 

IDRoVE

    ..LIKEA FIEND!!!! BoYIWETURNED()SoMECoR

NERS..!! IN(THAT*BIG*TRUCK.. &KENSAYS.. 

oHHHHHHHH... 


YOUR'ENDTGoNNNNAA..MAAKKEEITTTT!!)

HA-HA-HA-ha(SHERRRoDD...

yooooUUUUUURRRREEEEEE...NoooTTGoNNNAA

AAA..(MAAKKEE*IIITTTT)!!!

..THATTTTToNNNNNEEEEI! &HE &HE

 (STARTSYELLIN..HA-HA-Ha
_
&..SCREAMING!!!) &SURE..NOUGH!!     WE

GoTARoUND&.. ..UHHH..WEFINALLYUUHHH..

WEWE WE

DITCHED(THEM)!! WE(DRoVEDoWN)..THIS


(HIGHWAY)!! UNNBELIEVABLE!!! &yoU..KNoW?

? yoUyoU..KNoW?

(THoSE*BIG..TRUCKS)ARE..difficult(toturn)!

 They(don'thave..)muchturn? 

Youuucan'tturn..thoseBigTrucksl1?.tooFast? You

Havft'..toYou Havft(toSwingThemoUT!)?&..CUTem'

BACK!! &&you-youhavft..

 tocut(it)atjustth'RightMoment(oryour're..offth'road?

or..youdon'tclear)?

 YOUDoN'CLEAR..UHHH..TH'(INSIoEFENDER)?

AWLRIGHT.. 50 WE'reDRIVINGDOWN.. th'HIGH

WAY!! &SUDDENLY

(THER5S*ANoTHER..HIGHWAY)??CoMMING.. 

inlikethis!1 50I'MDRIVING.. &IGo(GRRRNNN..NNN

..NNN
 ERRRCCKKKKKI)&IDRIVEBACK(UPINHERE)

..&THENPARK!(CATACoRNER?)ACROSS..TH'

RoAD!? (CAUSE)IWAS..(IN*THEACT*oFBACKING

oUT!)? &I(HADTOCUT..TH'LIGHTS!)

 ..youknow&THEY(..WENT..DRIVING(BYE)!!!

 &THEYGoooo..GRRRNNNN.. ..&theygo..onpastus!)

 So..wefinally(ditchedthem)onth'

Highway!?    Now..               UUHHHH..    Wetook..

(ourtime)   cause


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hewanted.. tohear(what(I)had(tosay))I? we..(gothome)

an
hour&..ahalf(late)? later!?. &coming(into..th

driveway.. Iwasso..)-

 UHHH..&WE(CAUGHTa..LUNARMOTH..A

BIGGLUNAR*MOTH!!) ..haveyouever..seen-those?

Babies..

   There(aboutTHI5BIG!!)?

 FLYING*AROUNO(ABIG)LAMPP05T!!?

OUT..ON..                    TH'HIGHWAY!!(at..night!)     

Andtheir..

PALEI(theirlike..LORCA'5*MOON5)??

 EXCU5EME!!..theirtheir

.. PALEGREENYELLOW..CHEE5ELIKE..THEY'VE

GOT..(TWOBIGEYE5!!)LIKE?. down_ere//thenyou'

vegot(this)..

delicate.. lonnnnggg... trail..youknow-?(filagree?) 

uuhhhh.. beaut-BEAUTiful..moTH5! UNBeliev

able!..&UHHH.. hehe'd..BeenBurn't..(BYEth'LIGHT)!!

 &50I.. IFINALLY(LETHIM*GO)ANYWAY!

 KENWE'VE(GOTTOTAKE)..EM'? WE..oughtto..
(take'eml)? &PUT*A*NEEOLE!!..throughthim!&

PINHIM*UP.. ! !)? &THA' THAT' 5.. THE (M05T

BEAUTIFUL! !?. &THEYALWAY5..theythey-

 always(ARE*IN)EVERY*COLLECTION..))?

 inall*TH'MOTH5..theyalways..have..


 ONEBIG*LUNARMOTHI!

&&&thelrtheir. . theirRARETOO ! ! . . their

 (notacommon)moth(caus_thei_)noctu_nal? 

butANYWAY! - 50IUHHHH!.. WE'ORIVINGINTO..

 TH'ORIVEWAY!! &5URE*NODGHl!ICUT


.. ..ICUT(THI5CORNER).. II..WA5N'T(ORIVING

FA5TI!?)-ICUTTHEN- BUT(TH'ORIVEWAY)?

 WE'O(beenout..anhour&..half)&(wewere..both

(dogtired)!) &..bye(thattime)? somehowitwas(about..

4 about4:00o'clock)Iguess!? &we..mighthave

  startedat(1:30loading?)    50..   5URENOUGH!! 1

(I'MTURNING..THI5(ONECORNER)!! &THEY..

HAOHa-HA-HA-

ontheirONTHEIR(5UNPORCH)?.orROCKPORCH?? 

HA-HA-&(I'M5TILLLAUGHING)? HA-

HA..CAU5E(EVERYTRAGEOY)HAPPEN5(TOME)!!

!? ITWA5??. AAAAHUGGGEEHHH.. BBIGGGG..

 CA555TTTIRRRONNN.. KETTTTLE!!!

     WHICHWA5. . THI5BIGGGG! ! !


    ABIGGGGAAANNNTIQUEEE! !

(BEAAUUTTIFFULLLBBBIIGGGGAANNTIQQUE

E!!) BUTIT
.. ..HAOABIG*HOLE(onthe..inside)INOTHERWORO5..
IT(WA5V

ERY..

  FRAGILE)?        &1111      50MMMEEHOOOWWW

WW!!    BUMMPP

..INTO(THAT!)!!? CIRCLE..? POT? WITH(ONEOF..

TH05E.. BIGTIRE5!!)? &We'redriving..along..&Isay!

(Itwent

.. CCCCCCCCRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCKK

K
KKKKK!!! KKKKKKK!!!KK!

 (RIGHTN'...TH'MIOOLE(ofth')NIGHT!!HA-HA-

 AAWWWLLLLHHOOO-

HHHH!!!!HA*HA*HA*RIGHIN..TH'MIOOLE(OF

TH')NIGHT!!HA*HA.. CAN(I*IMAGGINEE?)

 YOU(COUULLOO*(NOT)IMMAGGINEE!!?

 Youcould(imagine)? 

3_30(IN..THEMIOOLE)OF..TH'MORNING!!!? or

4:00AM.. CCCCCCRRRRRAAAAAAACCCCCKKK

K!!! CCCCRRRAAAACCCKKKkkkkkk!!!!


 MAC..(WHATTTT*WA555555*THAAAATTTTT!!!

!)?? WHAAA..WAAAA5555(THAAATTTTT!!))?


 HE5AIO(ITHINK..ITWA5-?

  AAAA                     5555TTTTTIIIIICCCCCKKKKK

KK)??    A5TICK?   NO..HA*HA*HA

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ASTTTIIICCCKKK!..HA-HA-HA ASTICK!!?

 NOMAC..THAATTWASA..(TREETRUNK)..HA-HA-

IFANYTHING..NOTA(STICK)? 111HIT(SOME

THING!!) UUHHHHH..IUUHHHHHH.. MACK..

MACK.. II..HITTTT..SOMETHING(AGAINNN)!!

 WHHHAAAAATTTIS..THAT?

II. .SAID. .WAS(THERE. .SOMETHING. .ONTH' 


(END?)OF .. TH' POS[! !?)

UUHHHH..TH'EDGE(OFTH'PORCH)? HESAID

(YEAH!).. HESAID(YEAH!)(A*BIG*KETTLE)?

 HELOOKEDATME..

 &ISAID...OOOOOOOHHHHHHH!NNNNOOOOO

OOO!..OOOOO!!

 IWASN'T(TRYING*TODESTROY*OUTTHERE!)


 SOIPARKED.. (TH'TRUCK)?.&wewalkedback?

 &thenmye(foot.. went..CLANK!CLANK! &there

was-(somedeepsilence?) &Isaid.. UHUH..UHOH!?

 &Isaid..(theyv'eheard(it)? -.. theyv'eheard(it)?

 ..&CAROLESAID..SHESAID..WHAT'STHAT!!

..WODJE!!?? WHATT'S(HE..DONENOW!!?)    

HA-HA(YOU
..
KNOW..AFTER(TH'KITTEN)?HA-HA

-YOUKNOWYOUKNOW..NOW(REALLV)?

NOW(THEEE'RE*PATIENCE..WAS(REALLY*

RUNNING*OUT!!)?)? Carole&Wodje(haveheard(it)

&.. ANYWAY(YOUKNOW..HOW(I)..

HAD TO*GETOUT..OFTHERE!!?QUIIICCCCCKKK

KK!!) NOW.

. ISAID..MACK(WEGOTTO)DO..SOMETHING!!

(NOW..LOOKMACK!!)I'MNOTGONNINGTO..

LEAVE(LIKETHIS)? WE'VEGOTTO..PUT(IT)

THISPOT

BACK(TOGETHER)! !??    .SO(HERE.. (IT) IS! ! )

LAYING..

LIKE(THIS(YOUKNOW»!!?


 &ITHAD(DIRT)IN(IT)YOUKNOW?

&IT(HADDIRT)(INIT)..THISMUCH!!


 &(THISBIG..AROUND)??

..DIRT(IN(IT)..UP(TOHERE)? &(TH'DIRTIS..


EVERY

W HER E??) &I..&I(DIDN'T)..REALIZE?    &(ISAID)

..WHAT'S

THIS(GREEN*STUFF)? &HE*SAID. .PE*TUNIAS! ! 

(HESAID.. THEYHAD-

..
FLOWERS(INTHERE)??

    ISAID..OOOOHHHH!NNNNNOOOOO!    &(IT

TURNED(OUT)TO BE..GERANIUMS & PETURNIAS

?) TWOBIG..GERANIUMS

&TH'REST(WERE..PETUNIAS..

 NOW(YOUKNOW)THOSE..THINGS
..
ARENDT!!                &&WHEN(YOU*HIT*IT! )?.      

ITIT ..SPLLAAATTED

OUUTTT!! &&..ANOTHER(TIRECAME)..ACROSS

(IT*HERE)??YOUKNOW..

&HERE(IT*IS)..JUSTA..(MAAASSSSHHEDD*


MEESSSSSSS!!!)?

&SO(MAC*SAID)..WELLYOU(KNOW)wecould..

tryto(put*it)BACK

TOGETHER!!?

 &Isaid..YOUR*KIDDING)..ARE(YOU*KIDDING)!!?

 YOUR'E(OUTTA..YOURHEAD!!)ISAID..

 but(THAT'STHE..ONLY

THING(TODO!!)WE..GOT*TO*DO*IT!?   SO..     

Iwent

&GOTa..FLASHLIGHT..inth'House? &tiptoed(into)

th'House? &GOT*A*FLASH*LIGHT!)

 CAME..back*OUT!&WE.. FOUND*TWO*

SHOVELS!! &we..found(anOLD*PIECEOF..BI_*_

RUSIY*WIRE!!) aboutthisTHICK!!

 &WE(WRAPPED(IT)AROUND(1WICE)AROUND..

(TH'THING..) &TIED(IT..)UNDERTH'HANDLES!!?

RECONSTRUCTED(TH'WHOLE*POT)..

 WEHAD..WEHAD(TOTAKOUT)

TH'REMAINDER..OFDIRT!!)? TAKE(IT*OUT)!?

 PLACE(TH'STUFF


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)INTH'INSIDE!..&oNE(PLACE(oFTH'PoT..WoULD

N'T)STAYIN? SoWEJUST..oVERLAPPEDITI!

(CASTIRoN*PoT)? WHICHyoUKNoW..ISQUITE

(VISUAL?) INoTHERWoRDS..HA-HA

 SHE'sGoNNA..CoMEoUT!! INABoUT..2mos.)? 

&she'sgonna see..(she'sgonna..see)Ha-Ha-

Ha(ALL*TH'..FLoWERS*DEADI)&she'sgonna..see

 (WHATHAPPENED.. ToMYE...PooooTTTTTTT!!)?

 (WHHHHAAAAATTT*HAAAAAPPPPEENNNED*

 Toooooo*TH""""'pooooooooooooTTTTTTT!!?)?

 HA*HA*HA*HA*HA_ HA*HA*HA*.. HA*HA*HA

*HA*HA*.. HA*HA*HA*???? yoUKNoW
..
     HA*HA*HA*   yoUKNoW..      SO..     ANYWAY..

     SO..
WEWoRKed.. weworked.. weput(allth'soil..back(in)? 
we
reconstructed. . th'pot!        th' pot. . inth' dark?)?   &he. .

started..laughing &1.. startedlaughing -like-crazy
(causey
ouknow-(we'd..beenDrinking)!? we'd..beenworking
(forab

out).. 15/18/2ohours..) &hesaid(this..istoo(much)&&


(we're-laughing)..&hesaid.. REMEMBER(th'PAINT

iING)bye-th' GRAVE*DIG

GERS!!?).. DDyoU(EVER*SEE)that..

PAINTING!!?

Of Qui..QuiBaud?      uhh..QuiEWBoH?.    uhhhh(1898?

.Painting

of- GRAVEDIGGERS?)      it 'an   AMERICAN PAINT

ING!?

&TheseEyes.. AreLikeThis!!??. &TheirDigging..

 &(yoUKNoW..THEY(ARE*SCARED))??

 &THEY'REBEING..BEING(CAUGHT!!)?

 BYE*SoMEBoDY..HA*HA.. 

REMEMBER(THAT*PAINTING)?HA-HA_HA


WELL..THIS(REMINDSME..oFTHAT*PAINTING!)HA-HA-

HAyoUMEAN..ToSAY

.. YEAHooHHHYEAAHHH!(THATPAINTING)?

WELLHA-HA- WEWE

 REARE..(GoING..To(GET)CAUGHt)!! WEWE..

CAN'T(PoSSIBLY..


 &&WE..'ARESCRAPING..WE'ARE(SCRAPING)?

?
..WITH(TH'SHoVELS!!) ..ATNIGHT(SSCCRAPIN

NGG!!

 &ATNIGHTTH'(CRICKETS..AREGoING..kkkkkk
krrrrrrrhhhher..kkkkkkrrrhherkkkkkkrrrhhherr..kkkk
rrrhhherrr!?) scrape..scrape..

SCRAPE.. uhhhhoovverhereKen..(moredirt)overhere
. overhere(moredirt..moredirt)!! ha-ha-ha ha-ha-haha
.. scrape..scrape..some(moreflowers)? ..(moredirt)?

Ha-Ha

-HaHERE..PRoPP(THEMUP..PRoPPTHEM..UP(To

(MAKETHEM)STAND!!))I!MAKETHEM..
(STANDUP)!!Ha-ha-ha.. BoY!(ITWAS..TooMUCH!
!)?
NAW..Reallyit'stoo..much? (THISoNE'stoo..stiff

(looking)?) ha-ha-ha..

 So(WEPUT(ITALL..BACKToGETHER!!) WE

 REPLANTEDth'FLoWERS.. 

NoW(yoUKNoW..THEY(ARENoT..GoING)ToLIVE
?)
THEY'LLLIVE..ha-ha..hehe NoW(REALLY..
 WHEN(WEGoT
..
         THRoUGH..WITH(TH'FLoWERS..)? THEY

WERE..
             THEYWERE.. LIKE(THIS)..kinda-horizontal??

WEHUNG..THEM(oN)EACH..oTHER!! (HUNGTHEM..oN(TH'EDGE)?? HA..HA-Naw..really? ha-ha- 

&THEN(WETooK*WATER..TH'WATER?. &WATERED(THEM!!))) IN (HOPES!??).. THAT(A*CoUPLE?)..oFTHEM..(WoULD*STAND

(UP)!!))HA_HA BYE..INth'MoRNING.. Thenwe.. WASHED(AWAYTH'SoIL)..Pulled Rocks..DroppedLeaves

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PART*TWO/-..OF*/-..THREE*PARTS!
"BEIGE*BUTTS/-..-I*(!)"?
poems..(C)copyright
      philip lawrence sherrod